Metamorphosis- the daily evolution of a young wife

i’m so frustrated right now i could scream. my thin walls keep me from doing so. the red text color will spew forth my wrath this morning.

every single week the gap puts me “on call” which is bullcrap for saying, we don’t need you, but when you call in to see if we do, we’ll say come on down just to piss you off.

congratulations! you did it! you pissed me off. last week AND this week. i don’t know why i keep calling in, i mean, technically i don’t have to work because i’m not on the schedule. if they want me to come down, then definitely put it on my schedule. don’t get my hopes up and then say “oh we need you”

last week when i was on call, i went down at 1 and pretty much did nothing. there were plenty of people to go around, all the breaks were covered, and the store was completely empty. i hate that, and i know since the weather sucks, it’s going to be like that again today.  

the gap knows that i have to drive 35 minutes to get there. a 4 hour shift is hardly worth it to me & i’ve already clocked out of this job. if we didn’t need the money, i would have put my 2 weeks notice in.. well, probably 5 weeks ago. i’m so sick of their crap.

also, i’m not trying to get any more customers to open a gap credit card. the interest rates are terrible, the rewards are not that rewarding, and it’s just another thing that’s killing our economy. plus, the clothes are ugly right now.  

that’s about it for my rant. you see, it’s almost 11am and i have to start getting ready now because i have to leave 45 MINUTES EARLY JUST TO MAKE IT THERE ON TIME WITH PITTSBURGH TRAFFIC. i miss mays when it was right across the street and i could leave at 12:58 and get there at 12:59.  

so today, after doing a lot of nothing, this is my story of tonight:

jeremy came home from his classes and we hung out & watched friends for awhile, then we decided to go to robinson so jeremy could get some nice clothes at the gap & old navy. so we’re driving there and we got past the pitt airport and we were forced to stop, about 3 cars ahead of us, two police SUVs made everyone on the interstate stop… for no reason.

so we were stopped for about 10 minutes & jeremy and i were discussing what could be happening. i was trying to think of fun & exciting things… and my husband came up with someone was moving something really big so they needed more room so they wouldn’t back up traffic anymore. very boring answer.

we got to robinson & did our shopping, and got some great clothes for jeremy. the first shopping trip where i didn’t get anything, i think.

so as we’re getting ready to leave the mall & head down the street to old navy, we were stopped AGAIN at the on ramp for the freeway! except this time, there was a policeman outside and he waved me forward so i was the  first person in line, and he said that the president was coming through & we couldn’t be on the road.

i was so happy that the reason we couldn’t drive was something more exciting than some stupid truck moving something huge.. so we waited there for about 10 minutes and then there he was! well, of course, after like 15098 police vehicles drove by first. i decided i needed to have a picture of this… you know, not because i’m inherently proud that i got to see the president (he is ruining our country, i don’t care what you say) but because i never get to see famous people! it’s not fair. pittsburgh has absolutely no one famous. all they care about is football & i don’t like bigben. i’m sorry. if i lived in new york, i’d be walking around famous people all the time- do you know how many celebrities live in new york? NONE live in pittsburgh!

i’ve been listening to dashboard a lot today, i forgot how good of a lyricist chris carrabba was. i suppose i’ll write later today, i have too much to do and too little time to do it.

you know what i don’t understand? i’ve never known what maundy meant. does it mean holy? i know people also refer to maundy thursday as holy thursday, but i’ve never taken the time to ask/figure it out on my own. 

we went to cumberland for easter, got there thursday night.. it was such a nice weekend without work. we pretty much just hung out around the house & went to the mall a few times. saturday night, the whole family went to the movies- we saw meet the browns, one of tyler perry’s new movies. somehow, every time we’re in cumberland “madea’s family reunion” is always on tv. we’ve seen that movie like a hundred times, but it’s funny. anyway, meet the browns wasn’t funny like madea, but it was humorous at times & the story was still good.

sunday, i went to choir practice early, apparently i’ve been signed up to be in the choir at church when i’m there. i can’t wait to be able to sing every sunday when we move. i haven’t been in a choir in almost 3 years, i miss singing so much! darn pam for leaving me & moving away and taking our gorgeous voice lessons away.

 after church, we had lunch & then jeremy & i took a nap for awhile, i’ve been so tired lately. we had a delicious easter dinner & left for beaver falls when the in-laws went to church. oh, how i hate having to leave cumberland to come back to the crummy beaver falls. may 14th cannot come soon enough! 

my last day at the gap is may 2nd, and i can’t decide if i want to transfer to another gap when i move or not. the closest one is an hour away & i’d only work there on a saturday to keep the discount.

i have a couple books i want to read, or start reading. they’re all ones we got during marriage counseling or as wedding presents. there’s this really interesting one called “when sinners say ‘i do’” & also, “love that lasts” hopefully i’ll find some time to start reading them.

jeremy and i are getting ready to head to the grocery store, we need food! i love my husband, i’m so happy we’re together, he’s amazing & takes care of me & i’m so so blessed to be able to call him my match.

p.s. CONGRATULATIONS TO SARAH & COLBERT! 2 of my closest friends, engaged! i’m so happy :-) 

so you know how the sabbath is a day of rest? jeremy & i took FULL advantage of that today. this past week has been busy for us, so we went to bed last night at 11, and slept in til noon today. after that, we watched a couple episodes of the office. i made some lunch, which was delicious.. 

after lunch, we decided we were tired again, so we tried to take another nap- put on ever after … one of my favorite movies (sadly, i can quote it all.) we ended up not falling asleep, and had some taco bell for dinner.. watched last week’s episodes of extreme makeover: home edition, oprah’s big give, and here come the newlyweds- 3 shows i love that are on sunday nights on ABC- a channel we don’t get. actually, we don’t get any channels, we’re poor & can’t afford cable. 

now, we’re both sitting in bed, on our computers, watching the office again. basically, we’ve taken “lazy” to a whole new level. but to me, that is ok. also, i am incredibly sick of my job. i think i have a problem. i like new jobs for a couple of months, then i get super bored with them and want to move on. is that a medical condition? i don’t know if it’s in the gap’s corporate policy to hire complete jerks as managers or what, but they do, and it’s sad to say, but i think i actually miss mays. at least bill was practically obsessed with me, let me have responsibility. i think thats why i don’t like one particular manager at gap. he treats everyone like they’re 7 years old, or like it’s their first day at work. and since he’s the only “he” manager, i think everyone knows who i’m talking about.

4 days of work this week and then it’s off to cumberland for easter. thank god. 

well yesterday was an interesting one. as usual, work was lame. i’m so ready to be done there. i wish we could do without my input of paychecks for a month, but we’re already pushing it as it is. 

we applied for the apartment on washington street before we left cumberland, and we talked to the lady who’s renting it out, and she accepted our application & deposit! so we have a home =) i’m very excited because 1) it’s on washington st, 2) the rent is decent, and 3) i was a bit nervous with only little over a month left to find a place to live. it’s harder than you think, trying to find a nice apartment in a nice neighborhood in cumberland. they should really work on that.

hmm how do i word this? when we got married, i suppose we got to experience the future a bit early. usually it’s after everyone graduates that friends are no longer kept in contact with, you see less and less of everyone, and you just grow up, i guess. there’s a handful of friends still at geneva that i like to have contact with, and see when i can. granted, jeremy & i are really busy, but we still manage and try to see/talk to our friends when we can. however, there’s some people i thought would move on with their life once we tied the knot. you know, marriage means that we’re both taken. it’s too bad that some are still hung up with feelings that they don’t realize what they’re doing. i don’t think attempting to destroy a marriage is the best idea for some people. plus, it makes you look like a pretty big hypocrite for all that soap-box preaching you do. 

so all in all, that was what in geometry, one calls a tangent.  but i still think it needed to be said. i’m excited for cumberland, geneva produces some great friends, but it also carries a lot of wolves in sheep’s clothing. i guess you’ll have that anywhere. cumberland’s going to be a fresh new start though, i can’t wait to live there with my husband, in our beautiful apartment, close to family and friends, and a great church. 

countdown til may 14: 61. wow. 

today was my first day back to work after a week off. i didn’t enjoy it. today was particularly slow, & i didn’t really have anything to do. i have 4 more days of work this week, then i can’t wait til friday of next week- easter break! back to cumberland for 3 days. i’m very excited. 

my husband is very amazing. i had to work all day, and jeremy did all of our laundry from spring break, made the most amazing dinner, and did other things around the house. he’s so perfect for me, i love him so much. God’s really blessed me with such an amazing husband, i can’t wait to move to cumberland and finally settle down with him and not be so busy anymore.

tonight we’re going to be folding all of our laundry, tons of it, and straightening up around here. i love spending nights with jeremy, it makes me so happy & i feel so loved when i see him smile at me. i love being married!  

happy one year love

i can’t believe it’s thursday already. we have to head back to beaver falls on sunday & i really would rather just stay in cumberland.

yesterday, jeremy & i hung out with ian & tristan for a little bit- we went to starbucks & then up to ian’s house for awhile. it was a lot of fun, i really enjoyed myself. it was really good to see them. ian made me 2 mixed cds to listen to on the way to cumberland, and we listened to them on the way here.. they are so good, so many songs are played at the gap so i got to enjoy hearing them again. some of them make me happy. i really like rivers cuomo. you should too.

we got to cumberland around 8:30 and hung out with my in-laws (wierd to say that) til about midnight. i’ve been sleeping an abnormally long time at night, usually from 10-11.5 hours. jeremy has a job interview with timbrook’s sometime in the next 2 days, but until then, we’re mostly hanging around town, which i love anyway.

saturday, the ladies in jeremy’s church are having a tea to welcome spring & bethany’s mom invited me, so i’m excited for that. i love his church- the people are so nice & friendly, & really make you feel welcome. i can’t wait til we move & we can go on a regular basis & i can become a member.

today we’re going to washington street (the most beautiful of all the streets in cumberland) to look at houses for sale, just for fun. we can’t afford a house right now but it doesn’t hurt to look, right? i also have a book i’m trying to read by the end of break called love that lasts by gary riccucci. i think that’s the last name. friends of josh harris. at any rate, it’s thursday and i have yet to start page 1.

isn’t ashley gorgeous? i wish i had her budget to by her $200 ripped scarf. i’ll settle for my $8 old navy one that looks exactly the same. but regardless, i still love how she dresses. it’s hard to pull off when you work at the gap. also, i love her glasses.

even though i earnestly insist that i’m not like my mother, i think this excerpt from our conversation shows just how much like her i’m turning out to be: 

(while we’re watching extreme makeover: home edition as a family)

me to jeremy: honey, why is that soldier wearing a beret? is he part of the green berets?

jeremy: no, all soldiers in the army are issued a beret.

(several minutes later) 

my mom to my dad: bob, why is he wearing a beret? is he in the green berets?

my dad: no karen, all soldiers have berets.

 very interesting.

well, i’m home. it’s okay i suppose. tomorrow lydia greene is throwing me a small bridal shower at her house. it should be nice, she’s a very nice lady. i like her a lot. i saw tristan today at walmart & tomorrow i’m supposed to be hanging out with ian and he. i’m very excited for that. well, jeremy and i are getting ready to head to gallery of sound, bloomsburg’s most beloved cd store. :-)